If I heard he dropped dead....

KeeweeKeewee Registered Users Posts: 1,376 Curl Neophyte
I would be glad, is that a sick feeling, all the pain he has caused me my children, his own family my family, everyone he comes in contact with him has some beef about him. His only concern in life is money money he thinks that it will make him happy but yet he has EVERYTHING but he still a miserable ****. am I so wrong to feel that way,? I never wished that on anyone, but him. It has been non stop pain for 19 years

I just want to be happy again and I feel like I will be a miserable dog as long as he is around. oh I HATE HIM SO VERY MUCH!!!!!
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  • rouquinnerouquinne Registered Users Posts: 13,737 Curl Connoisseur
    :shock:

    i suggest you get counselling - NOW!
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  • KeeweeKeewee Registered Users Posts: 1,376 Curl Neophyte
    yes Tuesday I have an appt LOL
    3A some 3b Total Product Junkie
    P/Wmarissa
    http://public.fotki.com/Keewee
  • SnarlsSnarls Registered Users Posts: 2,537
    Yeah, do the counseling thing. You don't need him dead, you need to move on, in your mind. And don't worry, it sounds like he's more than capable of keeping himself miserable.

    I'm afraid Rou will make a shocked face at me, but I might have sort of maybe possibly at one time long long ago thought that certain people needed to be .... not around .... before I could be happy. It seems to be the opposite. When the person dies, you never get a chance to resolve any of the feelings. Anyway, the problem is with YOUR feelings about him, so that's what you need to work on. As long as you're thinking about him, you're still letting him control your life.

    You've made the first big step, and you're on the right path!
    formerly Castella
    (my dogs aren't snarly, my hair is)
  • KeeweeKeewee Registered Users Posts: 1,376 Curl Neophyte
    yes you are right, i was told that by a therapist, whether i hated or loved (he was still in control.
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    P/Wmarissa
    http://public.fotki.com/Keewee
  • rouquinnerouquinne Registered Users Posts: 13,737 Curl Connoisseur
    Castella wrote:
    I'm afraid Rou will make a shocked face at me, but I might have sort of maybe possibly at one time long long ago thought that certain people needed to be .... not around .... before I could be happy.

    not at all, ma chère! you're talking to a woman who's ex moved in across the street from her with his new girlfriend (later wife) and who would turn and walk the other way when he saw her at the local grocery store, library, dry cleaners, etc.

    :lol:

    i found moving 700 km across the province to be a GOOD thing!!!

    :D
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    http://labellatestarossa.blogspot.ca/

    Little Mother of all the Roaches, President-for-Life of the MAC Harlots!
  • KeeweeKeewee Registered Users Posts: 1,376 Curl Neophyte
    I saw a therapist today and she said it sounds like I might be addicted to him imagine :x
    3A some 3b Total Product Junkie
    P/Wmarissa
    http://public.fotki.com/Keewee
  • starinastarina Registered Users Posts: 665 Curl Neophyte
    I think wishing him dead is a normal emotion. You are going to feel all of them--anger, hate, sadness, bewilderment at what's happening. So I am not shocked that you would express that feeling, and especially since he's being such a b**tard about the kids. That's what happens a lot of the time during breakups, the kids get put in the middle and get used as pawns. So sad.
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  • WiregirlWiregirl Registered Users Posts: 1,695
    Your feelings are normal, hang in there!

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