HELP AND ADVICE NEEDED!!
Hello, i’m 16 and around 9 i started getting relaxers, around 10 i stopped and would just go to a hair dresser for a press and curl twice a month. i always had “long” hair for a black girl as black girls would tell me. it was about shoulder length and healthy. Around 14 i got SEVERE heat damage and 9 months ago i made a spontaneous decision to cut off all the heat damage and go natural, leaving me with really really short hair. I have no idea what i’m doing and i’m really uneducated, i’m still natural but i have really bad breakage because all i know how to do is a slick ponytail, and i have heat damage (not as bad as it was before) in the front because of a sewin. i am SICK of my hair, twist outs, braid outs etc don’t work because of the heat damage so i’ve resulted to braided protective styles which result in me spending lots of money i really don’t have. I’m really sad because i thought going natural would help my hair but i’ve hurt it more than ever. Now i’m considering ditching this “natural” phase and getting a relaxer, cutting off the bad breakage and rocking a short bob or cute pixie cut. I constantly regret cutting my hair 25/8 and always think about my hair before i cut it, this isn’t healthy since there is no way i can get it back. I also always want sewins, weave ponytails and all that but i don’t since i’ll just get more heat damage ruining my “natural” hair. Please help me i need advice, as dumb as this sounds natural hair is not for me and for the first time in my life my hair is my biggest insecurity.