How can I raise my self esteem?
I have terrible self esteem. It really hit me just how low it is today though. I have been stood up many times by one particular guy who I'm not even dating, just messing around with. Despite being stood up many times, I continue to see him and be hung up on him. He told me a few days ago he couldn't wait to see me before I left for school again. Well, I leave in the morning and I have not heard from him. Yup, I've been stood up again, and yet, I sit here wishing and wishing he would contact me. I always tell myself not to go running back to him but I always do. I'm realizing more and more that I must not have an ounce of self worth because I have put up with this, many times, for 2 years now. I don't want to be like this anymore. My poor rationality has me thinking that it's better to be seen a handful of times and get whatever I can from him than to have nothing at all. I know it sounds bad, but it is honestly how I feel right now. I would appreciate any type of moral support right now. I really don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I just can't stop thinking about him and how angry I am at him, and at myself for continuing to be his doormat. Thanks for listening
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