I may be gone. (drama free please) Update on post 87

ResRes Posts: 2,911Registered Users
I don't want to be a drama queen or anything but I wanted to let those who care know I may be gone for awhile.

I've been breaking down pretty bad lately and hiding it but today I just completely fell apart.

I no longer have my job because I just couldn't bring myself to work today and my manager was pissed off and I really don't know when I will be stable again. I feel like an idiot.

I am waiting on my mother right now because I have no idea what to do. I honestly can not stop thinking about suicide or just sleeping all day.

Again, I am not trying to be a dramatic person. I just know I talk to some people here who are very nice and may want to know.
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LI - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cream Headdress
DT - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cholestrol, SM Raw Shea Butter Deep Treatment
Stylers - BRHG (old formula is my HG, but the new one has silicones)

Trying out - MGA Sculpting Gel, LA Sports Gel, Got2b Spiked Gel, Got2b Glued
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  • cyndicyndi Posts: 3,341Registered Users
    I'm so sorry. I've been there before and know how you feel. I hope you get the help you need.
    I think that I deceive genius.:happy10:
  • RedCatWavesRedCatWaves Posts: 31,259Registered Users Curl Connoisseur
    Have you actually called your mother? Is she on her way? Does she know you feel like hurting yourself? Please don't just leave here without answering these questions.
  • ResRes Posts: 2,911Registered Users
    Have you actually called your mother? Is she on her way? Does she know you feel like hurting yourself? Please don't just leave here without answering these questions.

    Yes she is on her way now.
    3A/B - low-normal porosity - med to coarse texture

    Shampoo - GTTTT
    Co-Wash - As I Am Coconut Cowash
    RO - GVP Cond. Balm, Tresemme Naturals, Yes to Carrots Nourishing, AO Honeysuckle Rose
    LI - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cream Headdress
    DT - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cholestrol, SM Raw Shea Butter Deep Treatment
    Stylers - BRHG (old formula is my HG, but the new one has silicones)

    Trying out - MGA Sculpting Gel, LA Sports Gel, Got2b Spiked Gel, Got2b Glued
  • ninja dogninja dog Posts: 23,780Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    Stay on with us until we know you're going to be safe, okay? Just let us know when you mom gets there, please?
  • multicultcurlymulticultcurly Posts: 5,136Registered Users Curl Connoisseur
    What is going on? I've been severely depressed before, so I understand that the simplest of functions can be difficult. Please clue us in before you just simply vanish. We all hope you well.
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  • ResRes Posts: 2,911Registered Users
    ninja dog wrote: »
    Stay on with us until we know you're going to be safe, okay? Just let us know when you mom gets there, please?

    I will let you guys know.

    Thank you for caring.

    I wasn't sure if I should post this but right now I have no one around or to talk to. I am not looking for attention or anything.
    3A/B - low-normal porosity - med to coarse texture

    Shampoo - GTTTT
    Co-Wash - As I Am Coconut Cowash
    RO - GVP Cond. Balm, Tresemme Naturals, Yes to Carrots Nourishing, AO Honeysuckle Rose
    LI - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cream Headdress
    DT - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cholestrol, SM Raw Shea Butter Deep Treatment
    Stylers - BRHG (old formula is my HG, but the new one has silicones)

    Trying out - MGA Sculpting Gel, LA Sports Gel, Got2b Spiked Gel, Got2b Glued
  • mrspoppersmrspoppers Posts: 7,223Registered Users Curl Novice
    I'm sorry. I hope you can get some help quickly. And do please let us know that everything's okay.
    When are women going to face the fact that they don’t know their own bodies as well as men who have heard things?

    Don Langrick
    Bonsai Culturist
  • ninja dogninja dog Posts: 23,780Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    It's okay that you posted ---- we're glad. No one wants you to be alone right now. Don't worry about how or why or what anyone's thinking: we all wish you safe and well.

    I'm staying on until you tell me your Mom's there, okay?
  • kenzie!kenzie! Posts: 5,055Registered Users
    ninja dog wrote: »
    Stay on with us until we know you're going to be safe, okay? Just let us know when you mom gets there, please?

    Agreed.

    Promise??
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  • spiderlashes5000spiderlashes5000 Posts: 17,898Registered Users Curl Virtuoso
    Don't leave, Residual! You're part of a community of people who care. No matter what the issues are, some of us have surely gone through similar things. We may not know you in real life, but we want to be supportive.

    Whatever you decide (re. staying or leaving or taking a break from this site), best wishes. ((HUGS))

  • wavycurly40+wavycurly40+ Posts: 2,017Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    Yes, please stay here with us until your Mom arrives. I'm so sorry you are hurting.

    Wurly and proud!
    Modified CG since 2008.
  • RedCatWavesRedCatWaves Posts: 31,259Registered Users Curl Connoisseur
    Residual wrote: »
    ninja dog wrote: »
    Stay on with us until we know you're going to be safe, okay? Just let us know when you mom gets there, please?

    I will let you guys know.

    Thank you for caring.

    I wasn't sure if I should post this but right now I have no one around or to talk to. I am not looking for attention or anything.


    Please stay with us til you're safe with your mom, and then maybe check in and let us know how you are in a little bit...few days/weeks/whatever it takes. Don't just disappear forever, please.

    I wish you well.
  • ResRes Posts: 2,911Registered Users
    What is going on? I've been severely depressed before, so I understand that the simplest of functions can be difficult. Please clue us in before you just simply vanish. We all hope you well.

    To be honest, I don't know what is going on. I find myself annoyed by everything and crying about it. I just want to scream or hit something. I hate how I look lately, every part of my body hurts or bothers me. I feel tired all the time. I feel so ugly and like everyone is looking at me and thinking the same.
    3A/B - low-normal porosity - med to coarse texture

    Shampoo - GTTTT
    Co-Wash - As I Am Coconut Cowash
    RO - GVP Cond. Balm, Tresemme Naturals, Yes to Carrots Nourishing, AO Honeysuckle Rose
    LI - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cream Headdress
    DT - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cholestrol, SM Raw Shea Butter Deep Treatment
    Stylers - BRHG (old formula is my HG, but the new one has silicones)

    Trying out - MGA Sculpting Gel, LA Sports Gel, Got2b Spiked Gel, Got2b Glued
  • ninja dogninja dog Posts: 23,780Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    Residual, I posted here when my fiance and I broke up and I thought I would lose my mind, and people really cared and helped me.

    You're doing the right thing by letting us know how you feel.
  • ResRes Posts: 2,911Registered Users
    My mother just got here. I will check in.
    3A/B - low-normal porosity - med to coarse texture

    Shampoo - GTTTT
    Co-Wash - As I Am Coconut Cowash
    RO - GVP Cond. Balm, Tresemme Naturals, Yes to Carrots Nourishing, AO Honeysuckle Rose
    LI - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cream Headdress
    DT - Hollywood Beauty Olive Cholestrol, SM Raw Shea Butter Deep Treatment
    Stylers - BRHG (old formula is my HG, but the new one has silicones)

    Trying out - MGA Sculpting Gel, LA Sports Gel, Got2b Spiked Gel, Got2b Glued
  • JosephineJosephine Posts: 14,408Registered Users Curl Connoisseur
    ninja dog wrote: »
    Stay on with us until we know you're going to be safe, okay? Just let us know when you mom gets there, please?

    Yes, please do.
  • spiderlashes5000spiderlashes5000 Posts: 17,898Registered Users Curl Virtuoso
    Residual wrote: »
    What is going on? I've been severely depressed before, so I understand that the simplest of functions can be difficult. Please clue us in before you just simply vanish. We all hope you well.

    To be honest, I don't know what is going on. I find myself annoyed by everything and crying about it. I just want to scream or hit something. I hate how I look lately, every part of my body hurts or bothers me. I feel tired all the time. I feel so ugly and like everyone is looking at me and thinking the same.

    In that case, I would say definitely do not buy the Dansko sandals! :D

    Just trying to make you laugh.

    It will get better. Seriously. It might be as simple as getting off the Pill or it could be a change that takes a little longer but it absolutely will get better. Keep your head up.

  • ninja dogninja dog Posts: 23,780Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    Residual wrote: »
    My mother just got here. I will check in.

    Okay.

    Keep in touch when you can. We really care about you.:happy10:
  • SpringcurlSpringcurl Posts: 8,002Registered Users
    Yes, please check in with us. And take care!
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  • JayneeJaynee Posts: 2,039Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    I just want to echo what everyone else has said, please check in with us and know that we are all here for you.

  • M2LRM2LR Posts: 8,630Registered Users Curl Connoisseur
    Take care of yourself, Residual. I have been there before, too.
    :rambo:
  • rockthecurlzrockthecurlz Posts: 910Registered Users
    I hope you feel better! Just surround yourself with people that care about you. Be safe :)
  • cymprenicympreni Posts: 9,609Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    Take care. smiley-hug002.gif
  • mad scientistmad scientist Posts: 3,530Registered Users
    ((hugs)) Sweetie,

    Come back to us when you feel up to it. Hope you can find some peace and some support for what you are going through.
  • CurlyCanadianCurlyCanadian Posts: 10,904Registered Users, Curl Ambassador Curl Connoisseur
    Big hugs sweetie! Feel free to post/vent/talk/whatever anytime.....we're always here. Lots of people have gone through simialr feelings and will be great support!
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    Audrey Hepburn
  • nynaeve77nynaeve77 Posts: 7,135Registered Users Curl Novice
    (((Residual))) Please check in with us, okay? I'm so sorry you're suffering; I'll be praying for you.
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  • Gemini13Gemini13 Posts: 5,000Registered Users
    Take care of yourself, Residual.
    Brooklyn, NY

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    Winter- Giovanni Tea Tree (co-wash) & 50/50 (condish); Curl Junkie Curl Assurance Leave-In; Curls Milkshake & Quenched Curls; Re:coil; BRHG
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  • OnyxCabeloOnyxCabelo Posts: 1,767Registered Users
    I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, please take care yourself.

    You know, this site is full of some really fabulously compassionate people. When my mom wasn't well, and I thought we might lose her, there were people who came and gave me the support that I desperately needed. It helped me to feel like I wasn't so much alone any more. Some people on here have walked through all kinds of things, and can be there to be a support system for you too. I know for myself I often feel like I'm the only one to feel a certain way, but often I'm surprised to know that there are many others who feel the same.

    When you feel the time is right, I hope you decide to come back and vent, scream, yell - whatever you need to do to get yourself back to feeling top notch.

    Blessings:flower:.
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  • Stephanie198907Stephanie198907 Posts: 2,607Registered Users Curl Neophyte
    Residual take care and be safe. good for you for talking to someone about your feelings. I'm glad you have a support system.
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  • SystemSystem Posts: 39,060 Administrator
    Please be safe and kind to yourself.

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